Aug 3, 2010
21:01
I caught a glimpsed of my past on the bus yesterday and i was afraid, so I shunned.
She was dressed in red and with a friend that she happened to meet.
I just couldn't go up to say "Hi" or even make myself visible for any oppourtunity, I hid in the crowd.
There is just too much of fear beneath my skin. I cannot confront it.
I slipped out of the bus along with her.
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I've deleted my entire inbox. Those messages kept for years in a metaphorical box.
I wonder if that had deleted you from my life.
I had deliberately let go, stop trying. It may be better for us this way. Perhaps we still have a long way to grow. Have you given up your grip already? Or did you let go far earlier than me?
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My mid-year GP paper made it into the GP bulletin.
If I hadn't made a U-turn, I wouldn't have this chance.
U-turning has impacted me in so many ways I cant even begin to list them out.
And I continue to evade some, evading my past.
Am I now but a shade of myself, or have I always been a shade?
快不快乐,与悲不悲伤。